It was a by accident (yet God Appointed of course) that I
caught a glimpse on TV of 100 Huntley Street a few weeks ago. It was the young woman I knew on the
other side of the screen drew me in.
Shauna. Beloved precious
Shauna, who I had come to know when I was in Ontario working with young women
in their pursuits of finding and following God.
Shauna is a dynamo from an affluent family, incredibly
talented, beautiful inside and out I just knew God had a high calling for
her. When I moved to Kelowna to be
a Pastor I God feel the Spirit nudging me at times to connect with her to which
I called her and then it would get less frequent emails and in time we lost
touch and yet I still thought of her.
One time she even came to Kelowna on a conference and tried to get
together and my schedule was too full….. shame on me. I am so embarrassed to admit that but it is true.
For now, in this very moment as I saw her confess on
national television although being a leader she was struggling and didn’t
really have anyone she could trust to share with and oh… how my heart
broke.
How convicted I was that I didn’t reach to her more. Her tears and words pierced my
very soul as my eyes fill with my own tears.
I KNOW the ones
that stand up and out for Christ are more brutally attacked and as leaders they
have few that they can be real with… I know it… it’s lonely. And as I watched her with such remorse
in my selfish heart it broke before God for His forgiveness and that I do even
now need to step up to the plate to similar young ladies especially.
As I listened to her, I was so blessed to see how God had
brought her through and now she had a godly husband and was stepping out
again. Shauna.. beloved Shauna…
please forgive me for not standing with you, for not giving you more of myself
at a time you needed a woman’s ear, support, love and understanding. You are precious to me. Truly.
So … from there my confession was indeed heard, for God
usually quite quickly will test me in this by giving me another chance. A similar beloved young woman who has
given herself to God in working and living at an Orphanage in Haiti wanted to
get together as she was here for a few days. Despite having a packed schedule.. I MADE time… and sure
enough.. here across the table this beautiful young lady confesses to me the
realness of her struggles and yet her undying love for Christ… so precious to
me. I prop her up and fill her
with HIS truth and I can feel her spirit leaves again refreshed and encouraged
back to Haiti.
It doesn’t stop there.
Then I am stirred more locally as randomly I get these young women in my
own hometown with emails… confessions.. concerns.. frustrations… some I can
just look at and hug them and my discernment can see the battle…sigh… and I’m
frustrated at how the enemy is all over these young single beautiful God fearing
young women. How he loves to isolate
and have at them, literally I feel like just beating up their spirits. Uggghhhhh
I bring it/them to God. We talk. And
then in obedience I know I need to pull them all together and speak LIFE to
them encourage them, fight WITH them and share my own life more
intimately. And so I send out the
specific call to these ladies if they are interested I would work with them and
we would go deeper in things of truth as we do life together.
I am then convicted to open this to the other pastors that I
know if they have a couple leading young ladies in their flock that could use
some pouring into. Desiring to be
ONE church is what I’m about, because God is. The pastors are supportive and even thankful.
I write all this because this group of girls.. BLOWS ME
AWAY…. Truly. I am so blessed to
be in their company to see the real rawness of their hearts flow so tenderly
and yet the inner strength and beauty that is growing so strong in all of them.
I believe I am actually presenting
these ladies to God as a personal offering of worship. Pure beautiful, noble women… on reserve
for God to give as gifts to young men that are worthy of their inner and outer
beauty. TRULY. A woman of noble character who can
find? She is worth far more than
rubies. Proverbs 31.
God gave me a promise years ago that I read once a month… “I
will lead virgins in my train with joy and gladness to the King and my sons
will be princes in the land”(Psalm 45:14-16). I do believe, despite all that is going on in society God
indeed has a remnant of His own that is arising. Noble and worthy ones that exude a purity that indeed sets
them apart as God desires it to!
These girls I shall fight for…. And yes, young men that are reading this
…be encouraged, they DO EXIST. But
just know you shall indeed need to prove your devotion and love to God for they
are indeed falling in love with Christ.
The more Christ like they sense you to be, the better odds of your
fragrance intoxicating their souls.
Christ isn’t some ancient man in a long gown and unruly long hair… HE’S every once of beauty in perfection
in a man you can imagine. Trust me
on that… in heaven I’ll look at you and say “I told you!!!” J Sound crazy… hmmm, than you’re not the
guys. Sound inspiring … perhaps
there is hope for you! I am
praying for them “dream guys” already.
I have a list. I know when
we delight ourselves in the Lord He indeed gives us the desires of our hearts. I know it because His word says it and He
gave me ROGER.
God is faithful when we are faithless… He loves us without
strings attached. He desires
always to give us what is best for us… we just don’t really know how good He
is.
I now understand when Paul says.. “my brothers(Sisters), you whom I love and long for, my joy
and crown”…..Philippians 4:1
These girls are moving my heart in deep ways. Our joy and crown ought to come from
pouring into others and seeing the light and love of Christ transform people.
Shauna…. I am sorry for not being there for you but I thank
you for sharing your story that God would accept my repentance with actions by turning
towards these young babes reaching with protective arms of love. Bless you, dear princess of Him.
Check out what God is doing through Shauna…. www.notwhoIwas.com
Her interview http://test.100huntley.com/video.php?id=632zVZLpLow
As for MY ladies… hmmm.. yes I may introduce you to them in
time?!! I’m thinking I may have
them share even on this blog some things they are learning… so stay tuned.
If you’ve missed an opportunity, just confess it to God and
I promise He will give you another chance just be sure to obey, this blesses
our Father’s heart. (Acts 26:20b)
Humbly yours, passionately HIS,
C
